My first time photographing food on location with natural lighting. It’s not as easy as it may look!
What could I do that would be completely different to my usual photography, when I wouldn’t need to rely on anyone else? What would be out of my comfort-zone?
I set-up a sort-of mini studio in my bathroom; one light & umbrella, tripod, triggers, DSLR and thin material draped over the shower rail…
…altering colours in Photoshop, just to experiment.
When I say this was out of my comfort zone, I mean I have never been happy with my appearance and body. I have a big urge to spend money that I don’t have on clothes to make myself feel better about my appearance. No amount of clothes would ever make me feel or look the way I want, but covering up my skin makes me feel a bit more secure and comfortable… So to photograph myself nude and post it online is one big, scary leap for me. I shocked myself. I am so very scared about the reactions from my friends, family and other people who might come across the photographs. I want people to look past the fact that their shy, quiet friend is completely nude on their computer monitor and instead look at the photographs in an photographically critical way, not critical of my body and reasons for posting the images.
I have always been bothered about peoples opinions; of my appearance, clothing, personality etc. I’m slowly moving on from this. One day I’d like to be truly comfortable in my own skin and be happy with who I am. But at the moment, I am kind-of a bit of a perfectionist. I do something, re-do it, alter it and eventually start from scratch or completely ditch an idea all together because I don’t think it’s ‘good enough’ or that ‘I can do better’. I end up not finishing projects, college work and many blogs, because I get bored of changing something I feel won’t ever be good enough. The same goes for my appearance.
The video above shows just how insecure people can be with their appearance. Not just people like myself, but successful models who have earned a living from their looks.
I created my first website…
Then got bored with it.
I travelled, a lot.
I tried something new…
Filmed and photographed London Fashion Weekend, twice.
I dabbled in fashion.
Was part of some pretty cool shoots, from shooting with Hasselblad in London, shooting with snakes in StudioOne, to getting messy with glitter in the college studio.
I put down my digital camera.
I got published, featured on homepages of websites and even had a video featured on a programme!
I met the founder of Raindance.
I met local street photographer, Chris Portz.
I worked with London Festival of Photography and East End Film Festival and met Asif Kapadia.
I sat in the same room as David Bailey.
I finished my first documentary piece.
Myself and my college class had our work exhibited.
I revealed something very personal.
I then began my biggest project yet.
And that’s just photography/film related!